Bright Line Eating – day 199

NaBloPoMo #3

On April 17th, 2017, I gingerly wrote down my first Bright Line Eating meals. No sugar. No flour. No snacks. Weighed and measured portions. On the morning of April 18th, I carefully approached the scale, naked and cringing. At the last moment, I remembered to pull the hair elastic out of my ponytail and I placed it on the counter before stepping on the scale.

The number that popped up was large. And I know that I had reached higher numbers in recent weeks, but hadn’t been willing to step on the scale. I wrote down the number on my food notebook, and went downstairs to eat my first no sugar, no flour meal.

That first day was a revelation. As someone who took every opportunity to “stretch my legs” by wandering away from my desk and into the kitchen to grab a little handful of something, the no snacks thing was hilarious. I was plenty full from my Bright Line Eating meals, so I wasn’t hungry, but the impulse to wander into the cupboards and emerge with a grubby paw full of some treat was really strong. I felt like I suddenly had hours of extra time that weren’t being filled by kitchen explorations. I didn’t have to putter around opening cupboards and drawers wondering what to eat next, because I’d already planned out my food for the day. There was such freedom in that.

Over the first few weeks, I struggled with scent triggers and learned to take a walk to escape the smell of things I wasn’t going to eat.  As the days passed, and my brain started to heal from the barrage of sugar and flour that had kept me obsessing about food, I realized that my attitude towards food, eating and my body had changed. I wasn’t dieting to lose weight. I was a sugar and flour addict that was giving up the substances that were causing me to have no peace around food, health challenges that were compounded by the extra pounds on my frame, and I surrendered to the idea that eating this way could and would be my new way of life.  Not because I was losing weight (although I was!) but because I could feel myself healing.

Tomorrow is day 200 for me, and I’ve released 45 pounds.  Unlike the first few months, when my body was losing weight at a rate of about 10 pounds a month, my weight loss has slowed down to about 3-4 pounds a month. I go weeks at a time without lower numbers on the scale and I’m not worried at all. Little changes add up over time, and I’m in this for the long haul. I can honestly say that I’m not mourning the end of sugar and flour in my diet. I’m happily eating more vegetables in a month than I ate in an entire year when I was a vegetarian. I’m confident I’m getting exactly what my body needs, and I’m looking forward to new side dishes for the holidays, based on my new and improved cooking skills that maximize freshness and flavor without leaning on helpers like sugar.

So, 45 pounds released. One blood pressure medicine eliminated. My other blood pressure medicine cut in half.  Eliminated meds for pre-diabetes.  My silent reflux is gone. Swelling in my feet and ankles – gone.

I still have 55 pounds to lose. It may take me another year to get there. It’s okay. I’m having a blast eating my way toward victory. My family still snacks, eats sugar and flour, and that’s okay. Overall, everyone’s food is improving, because we eat at home much more often, and we always have fresh produce and healthy options at meals. I’m not interested in policing or changing their relationships with food.  I’m keeping my eyes on my own plate. I will say that they are asking for healthier proteins and dinner options in general, and the entire family’s food bill has dropped tremendously because we’re just not eating out very often.

If you have any questions about Bright Line Eating, I have a link in my sidebar with more about the program and my experience with the BLE Bootcamp. I’d be happy to answer any questions here, or via email, too.

 

Halloween 2017

NaBloPoMo Day #2

I wonder if these are on super discount now, because I regret not bringing them home.

Halloween was a bit of a flop this year. Nothing was usual this year, though. After the fires, we’re missing an entire neighborhood full of people in our immediate area, and most of our neighbors were not home, or weren’t handing out candy or something. I know this because we had some families come by our house two or three times, with the kids excited and the parents apologetic, because we were one of the only houses for the kids to trick-or-treat at.

My usual strategy for Halloween has been to buy candy well beyond our needs for trick-or-treaters, focusing on my personal favorite varieties, and then spending the month of November using fun-size candy bars as a reward for pretty much any action. Folded a load of laundry? That’s a treatable achievement. Paid bills? Give me one of those tiny little bars of goodness. Made a cup of coffee? FUN SIZE ME. Mostly because coffee + chocolate is a good mix.

But I’m not eating sugar or flour anymore, so I was careful this year not to over-buy candy. We gave away most of two big Costco-sized bags of candy, and a bunch of glow necklaces and spider rings, and then we were done, left with some random mini-packs of Swedish Fish and some sticky eyeballs that aren’t edible but look like they could be, so I didn’t give them out. The kids were less than enthused with my determination not to keep myself swimming in temptation for days and days.

My daughter said “Mother, I am off to war” on her way out the door. My son just said “Da!”

Anyway, the kids didn’t trick-or-treat at all this year. My oldest had a friend over to watch a movie, and my youngest helped hand out candy all evening. My son took his computer to a LAN party at a friend’s house, sans costume.  Midweek Halloweens always sort of suck, but this year was just extra meh.

 

That said, the costumes my youngest two pulled out were funny. My daughter wore a child-size Revolutionary War uniform we picked up on our trip to Mount Vernon, and my son wore his Russian hat and a faux wolf-pelt that I picked up with the goal of being a bloody Little Red Riding Hood, but ran out of time and interest in pulling off this year.

I would also like to point out that it is dark in this photo that we took BEFORE LEAVING FOR SCHOOL IN THE MORNING OMG. I’m so ready for the switch to standard time.

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