Team DeAnne

I’ve figured out that starting chemo on the 12th of February, and finnishing up on the 21st of May gives us 99 days of chemo.  Maybe 99 is easier to think of than 100?!

Two rounds down…or 6.4 miles of a marathon. 

True to form, I tend to have an attitude crisis along about mile 6 of a marathon.  I’m running along, realizing that I still have twenty to go.  I signed up for this race…WHAT AN IDIOT!  But then, amidst my rumbling and stumbling, mile 6 morphs into 12…then 12 accelerates into 20, and suddenly 20 feels better than 6 ever did.  After a while, somehow I always find myself at mile 26!  maybe I’ll just have to finnish this chemo regimen too.

Yet, here I am at mile 6-ish of my chemo-marathon, true to form, having a attitiude problem.  Why?  Not because of anything serious.  My heart isn’t faltering from the Adriamycin, I’m not so exhausted that I can’t teach or exercise, I still eat even though for the next few days things don’t taste quite as yummy.  No, this “fearless warrior” is having a ninny fit because her hair is falling out.   Yup, my side-effects are mainly cosmetic.   

I knew it would happen!  And my beloved hairdresser has clipped off even more length, so that now I look very French, a la Edith Piaf!  But it’s bitterweet because it’s only going to last a day or two. 

My brother and his wife, with baby to be in tow, arrived last night.  I can’t wait to see them!  I hope I don’t shock them! 

The thing is, before chemo started, many people had known that I had breast cancer, and that I’d had surgery, and they thought that I’d beat it.  What’s weird is that now I actually look like a sick person, when it was really a month or so ago that I was even sicker, though I never felt sick. 

Oh well, just like the marathon, I chose ths “aggressive” treatment plan, as my best bet against recurrence.  I signed up for it!  So far, I’m OK, just like in the marathon, when I think maybe I shouldn’t  have signed up for it, yet somehow I finnish it, and happily!

99 days total, with today being 80!  For now, in my mind, I’m so done with this chemo.  It cramps my style!

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