Whoever sent the memo to my 22 month old, inviting her to pardeh all night is on my list.

You would think that such a young child would require more than 45 minutes sleep in a 18 hour period. When my darling children finally dropped off to sleep at 9 PM, I allowed myself a little victory dance.

Heed my warning, oh smug parents. The parenting gods do not like victory dances. Not one teeny-tiny bit.

I was awakened at 1:30 AM by the sounds of minor crib rail rattling and my girl, talking to herself quietly. I ignored this, and as soon as I drifted back to sleep:

"Ma-maaaaaaa!" She's kind of got a sore throat right now, so she sounds kind of gravelly. In fact, she sounded just like a heavy metal singer. "Ma-MAAAAAAAA!" Too much of Daddy's big hair bands while in utero.

I gave her a minute to see if she could work it out and settle herself. (Bwahahahahahaha! As if THAT was going to happen.) I think it was at this point where she ripped the TV out of the wall and pitched it out the hotel window, followed by the armchair.

Nope, I was going to have to fetch her. I scooped her out of her crib, where she was looking very Pat Benetar, and brought her to my bed. We snuggled in for 3.25 seconds before she inserted both her pointer fingers into my nostrils.

"Yow! Ma-maaaaa! Wake UP! Wake UP!" She crowed as she slapped my cheeks rythmically. "Baby, it's the middle of the night."

"Yow! Seer-yall! Naw, Mama. Up! Get UP! Seer-yall!"

Okay, I know all about the 2 AM munchies, so I thought, maybe cereal WILL settle her down. Evil carbs. Hah! I spent 15 minutes watching her pick every raisin out of the bowl of Quaker 100% Natural and line them up on the table next to the bowl. Then she ate one bite of the granola and dumped the rest onto the floor.

Recharged by watching me crawl around on the floor cleaning up milk and cereal, she applauded and cheered. "Yea! Mommy!" I tried not to snarl too much.

I changed her pajamas. I changed her diaper. I sang lullabies and rocked her squirmy, not-even-a-little-sleepy body. I changed her diaper again. I got her sippy cups of warm milk. WARM. That was so over and above.

"Dag-tails. Ma-maaaaaaaa! Now! Ma-maaaaaaaa!" Screw it. It's 3 freaking 30 in the morning, if Dragon Tails on TiVo will net me some horizontal time, I'm game. So I got to lie on the couch while my daughter watched recorded shows until 5:30 when my husband gets up for the day. I didn't actually get to sleep on the couch. Everytime I would close my eyes, the child would kick me in the kidney, or slap my face.

So, there you have it. I'm cranky, I've had 2 hours of sleep in 24, and I'm blogging instead of cleaning. And the baby? She's still rockin' and rollin'. Un-freaking-believable.

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Son: Mommy, I just hafta keep on talking. You know, talking. Blah de blah and stuff.

Me: Honey, I've just barely opened my eyes. You can talk, but I'm not going to answer.

Son: Mommy, why did the dog talk to the Ram?

Me: silence

Son: Okay, you don't know. It's a joke. Say WHY MOMMY?

Me: Why mommy.

Son: Hee! Because! Hee hee hee! Because!

Me: Uh?

Son: Because he's always butting in. Get it? Butt? Hee! Buuuuuutt.

Me: That's what they call it when a ram uses his horns to bang into something.

Son: I know, but it's funnier my way. Butt. Butt. Butt. Butt.

Me: Okay, enough.

Son: (in mocking sing-song) Mommy needs some quoa-fee cause she can't take a joke.

5 year old: Did someone just say butt?

Son: Pain in the butt! Pain in the butt!

Me: Really, enough now.

Son and 5 year old: Pain. In. The. Buuuuuuuutttttt!

Me: (over my shoulder as I head for coffee) No more Butt!

5 year old: I guess we'll have to sit on our elbows. Great.

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I don't know what is going on... my whole family was squirrelly today. Lots of twitching and spastic flailing, leading to a whole lot of nothing in the productivity department.

A few days ago, I ran out of my makeup base - which of course sends a come-on-down signal to the acne fairy. Hello!?! I'm days away from my 32nd birthday and while I'd love to recapture my 16 year old verve, spots were NEVER a good look for me. I'm also retaining enough water that I could fling myself onto a burning building and save the day. It's like a bad Wonder Twins episode. Add to this vision of loveliness the fact that I've been too harried to buy my good shampoo and have been using my husband's all-in-one, rendering my tresses lifeless and dull.

Nevertheless, having rock-solid self-esteem and a bent towards procrastination, I prepared to go fetch my kindergartner at the appointed hour wearing purple yoga style sweatpants and a t-shirt, finished off by my ratty Target sneakers and barrette holding my limp bangs off of my face. I looked like holy hell, but figured I could at least excuse my lack of cuteness by arriving on foot. You know, like this was my workout look. Hah!

The stroller had a flat tire when we went to leave, and despite repeated attempts to fill the tire, it became apparent that we would be taking the van. During this repair interlude, my son took it upon himself to climb to the highest peak of the swingset, where he sang Baa Baa Black Sheep at the top of his lungs. I was able to coax him down with the promise of an Oreo.

I grabbed the baby and the dog, and loaded kit and kaboodle into the van. We arrived, were able to retrieve the big girl quickly, fetch her bike and load back into the van. We left, my daughter bubbling over with enthusiastic descriptions about Johnny Appleseed and Baby Beluga. We rounded the final corner to our house, and there was my mom in her SUV, waving.

She toodle-loo'd at me, and said "Can I come play?" This was really bad. I've been slacking on my housework. And despite playing catch up this weekend, I'm far from company ready. In fact, I should get my heinie off the computer and go clean. Right now. But I'm bad like that. Panic was shooting through every fiber of my being. My mom is a professional real estate stager. She makes homes look like model homes for a living. I didn't want to expose her to the chaos that has overtaken my home after several days of funkitude.

We entered into quick negotiations and decided on ice cream. Since the ice cream parlor is located in the shopping mall, I figured I could Clinique and perhaps replace my ratty shoes, since Grandma would be there to help out.

Normally, taking the kids to the mall is a hair-raising event, executed at a sprint with kids on lockdown in strollers and slings and a minimum of horsing around. Grandma apparently took her cue from my hair, weighed down with crappy all-in-one conditioners, because there was to be no hair-raising, nor any sprinting. She loves to show off the kids, and to let them have 'fun' by wandering free of restraints.

In the royal snit/state of fashion disaster I was in, I developed an eye-tick watching my 22 month old toddle into the path of other shoppers, causing them to lurch around her at the last minute while shooting the evil eye at me. I'm just sour to the core today, because they really had a wonderful time, and I'm sure I was imagining the dirty looks, because really, everyone was busy looking adoringly at my children and their young and cute grandmother.

After a refreshing, sugary treat, the children were primed and ready to take advantage of Grandma's good graces. I Cliniqued while Grandma took the kids up and down the escalator. I wandered the purses and shoes while Grandma took them to the bathroom. Hobo bags are in. After a brief questioning - "Jenny, did you know your son is wearing underpants with ballet slippers on them?" I had to 'fess up that he had soiled the last clean pair of boy pants and I had to improvise, while reassuring her that I'm not trying to raise a cross-dresser.

We let the kids play at the toy store. All three were excited but mannerly, and we made it out of there without spending a dime. Hooray for Grandma! I also got new sneakers, which will clash horribly with my purple pants. But, as I'm thinking on this, purple is really close to pink, and I can't do pink sweats. I have issues, I know. So maybe I need to get some new workout pants too. And a hobo bag. And a poncho. And a housekeeper.

Once we made it home, I was treated to a five hour long bad pun and knock knock joke extravaganza from my five and a half year old. She's got a real dorky streak. She comes by it honestly, what with her parents and all. My son napped, and woke up feeling extra energetic. In fact, he spent close to an hour bounding up and down on the mini-trampoline, kicking himself in the butt and saying "Look Mommy! I'm a pain in my own butt!" Over and over.

The wee one followed me around as I aimlessly loaded the dishwasher and folded laundry. She is in the rapid acquisition phase of language learning, and she speaks with a rising tone, so every word sounds like a question. It's adorable, and I try my best to keep my head in the game, but I was just weary. My slackitude netted me sharp pokes in the thigh from the baby when I failed to parrot the word she was schooling me on. I've got a bunch of pinpoint-sized bruises on my leg as proof of my wandering mind.

We read and logged our books for the evening, packed lunches for tomorrow, chose outfits, ate dinner, did the baths, played with daddy, brushed teeth, even got to bed at a decent hour. I think I will blame this restlessness on the weather.

Oh! That's the other funny thing my daughter said: she said that I'm Deciduous. She must have overheard me talking about needing to mulch my entire wardrobe and start fresh with some Fall Colors. Hee!

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I'm feeling rebellious, and I have nothing to rebel against.

When this mood strikes, I generally listen to Brian Setzer. If I had a pretend celebrity boyfriend, it would totally be him. It's one of those things, though... you start calling him your boyfriend, and he freaks out and stops calling you and you tear up all his photos and, uh, ahem.

Anyway, I have rediscovered that my children LOVE Brian. In particular, we love his stuff with The Brian Setzer Orchestra. It's great for some faux-swing dancing in the living room. And it inspires my children to refer to me as "Pretty Mama" or "Bay-buh."

And now, I totally want pin-curls and some new dancing shoes.

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Having a fondness for the little things helps, when you are not an adrenaline junkie. Take me, for example - on my list of Things To Do Before I Die, there is not one mention of leaping from a plane or swimming in shark infested waters. No climbing Everest, either.

There was an article in our local paper, about a local man who swam the English Channel. It was a longtime goal, with many years spent training, and at least one aborted attempt. He made it recently, and it was really great. I'm happy for him, and all those folks who feel the need to challenge themselves physically who go out there and get it done. Bravo.

Me, though, I've got my sights set on less strenuous events. For example: the sport of Roshambo. Shut UP! It is too a sport. In fact, I've been teaching my children the basics this week. A local winery is named Roshambo, and in addition to good wine, they are major forces in the more intense aspects of the sport.

Teaching the chitlins has been a blast. The 5 1/2 year old caught on right off the bat. She's good like that. She does occasionally try to trump me with an ears open, mouth closed and we did end up in a heated thumb-wrestling match over one paper/rock result. But she's savvy. She gets it. She puts on her Roshambo face and fakes me out.

The 4 year old son, well, he gets that you enter the smackdown with one of the three, but he doesn't always remember which trumps which. He's been known to use both hands, causing chaos. He also changes his weapon of choice if you should win. Thinks on his feet. Not a purist, but we're working on that.

The 22 month old is the best, though. She *always* kicks down with Rock, and she always slugs you with said Rock at the end of a match. Not very sportsman like, but an effective deterrent should some fool parent think about *always* producing Paper. Just wait, there will be an article about me someday, holding my Roshambo Pro-Am trophy while flashing a triumphant Scissor.

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I feel pretty bloated!
Oh so pretty zitty!
I feel pretty crampy and witty whiney and bright sarcastic!
And I pity any girl fool who isn't me scared tonight!

I feel charming crazy,
Oh, so charming lazy,
It's alarming how charming cranky I feel!
And so pretty swollen that I hardly can believe I'm real not aloft like a weather balloon.

See the pretty girl bleary eyes in that mirror there:
Who can that attractive snarling girl be?
Such a pretty hostile face,
Such a pretty dress large pair of sweatpants,
Such a pretty smile ratty ponytail,
Such a pretty me... never mind, just RUN!

I feel stunning monstrous!
And entrancing irrational!
Feel like running sleeping and dancing pouting for joy oh boy!
For I'm loved feared by a pretty wonderful boy smart husband who knows when to be quiet!

See, Mir - ANY TIME is a GREAT time to sing "I Feel Pretty!"

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First of all, I have to thank the adorable CCP for my first ever fan snailmail: a pack of "Mofo" gum. You can't see it in this photo, but the box also features really hilarious hand gestures with accompanying phrases like "When yo' chillin' with the bee-yatches, get yo' mofo groove on and put a cap in that dawg breath." I'm speechless. It's, like, perfect for me! Heeeeeee! Also included was a very sweet note that made my day! You're a doll! Mwah!

I'm going to have to keep this short and sweet (like me) today (I know, everyone is all, "good, because she just goes ON and ON") because I got myself a hangover. That's right, folks - fed the kids grilled cheese with baby carrots for dinner, put them to bed, curled up on the couch with a small glass of Chateau St. Michelle Cabernet Sauvignon and a grilled cheese of my own to watch Survivor. (It was a grilled swiss on rye, toasted with a touch of olive oil, which I feel compelled to mention. Just don't want you to think I'm pairing Kraft American singles, margarine and Wonderbread with my moderately priced wine. 'Cause I am CLASSY and all.)

This morning: Hangover. Hangover City. I'm like, shocked. I'm an even cheaper date than before. Sheesh. So I'm drinking tons of water and wearing sunglasses. To type on my computer. Let's all say it together: CLASSY.

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Carmen at Mom To The Screaming Masses has posted that she will answer any
questions (as long as they are within tasteful bounds.) Hop on over there and get some answers! Also, anyone want gmail? Is there anyone who still doesn't HAVE gmail? Ask me and you shall receive. Gmail, that is: you got other issues, take 'em to Carmen.

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In a fit of I don't know what, spurred on by a SALE! email from the marketing wizards at Gymboree, I shopped their online sale a few days ago. Take a ridiculous price, put a line through it, put a more moderate price in red and I'm all WHOA, THIS is a GOOD SALE! Never mind that the sale prices are still more than I would pay NOT on sale, say, at Target.

They had some sort of electronic voodoo going on, perhaps some sort of mind altering code flashing behind their logo, because I felt compelled to buy matching outfits for both my girls and me. Mommy-daughter dressing. (You can't see me right now, but I'm miming gagging myself with my finger)

If this wasn't proof of Gymboree's strength in the Force, they are not only matching outfits, but ZEBRA PRINTED. Black cardigans with
zebra collars, paired with zebra print dresses for the girls, and a knee-length zebra striped skirt for me. It really seemed like a good idea.

Then the box arrived. I laid out the girls' outfits on my bed, and reached into the box for my skirt. Have you ever bought the wrong size in packaged underware? I know, most of you buy lovely panties by the piece. What I'm talking about here is when you rip open a package of 3 to a pack squishy cotton undies and when you unfold them, they are the size of the main sail on a clipper ship. You think, "Hmm, are
these the wrong size?"

Same thing with this skirt. I spread it on the bed, and I'm certain it took over half the mattress. I held it up to me and no, it was
actually the RIGHT size. Apparently, zebras are actually tiny, but the stripes make them appear large and fearsome. This was such a bad idea. Matchy-match, and enlarging? No. Not for me. So I'm off to Gymboree to take advantage of their in-store return policy.

Because I love to go to the mall with my children.

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For some reason, I woke up this morning thinking about some old co-workers of mine. I worked at a company that had two divisions: one produced 'natural' cosmetics and toiletries like shampoo and face scrubs, and the other was working on a cure for Erectile Disfunction. And the president of the Erectile Disfunction division was named Ed. *Snort*

Anyway, these coworkers of mine were hilarious, and made the job fun. We worked in cubicles that were in direct line of sight from the president's office, and he was anal with a capital A. He didn't like to see more than one tidy stack of paper on the desk, and only if you were working on it, right that second. No visible in-boxes. No filing could accumulate. No coffee cups visible. No message pads, no personal items. No pens or pencils were to be seen. Oh, and we were supposed to be silent. At all times.

As you can probably guess from my personality, this is a huge issue for me. I can't shut my mouth off. My male co-worker (I'll call him Joe) and my female co-worker (Let's say, um, Sue) had worked for this company for several years,and were great at following the rules. Joe sat in the cube next to me, Sue across the aisle. For the first couple of days, I kept my nose to the grindstone, and was miserable. The third day, I heard a soft beep and looked at my phone. My intercom line was blinking. I picked up the phone and Sue said "Crazy yet? Wanna get some lunch? Joe and I are going in 5 minutes. Put your pen away!"

The moment we stepped out the breakroom door, squinting and blinking in the midday glare, the conversation erupted. Sue had a wonderful laugh. She was also an excellent mimic, and could imitate every employee. Joe was adorable, and he knew it. He was from a large Portuguese family, and as the weeks passed, took every opportunity to speak Portuguese in front of me, which I assume was supposed to impress me. With his blond hair and blue eyes, he was "...my mother's cutest child, I mean, she took me with her everywhere because people always went crazy over her beautiful blond boy. I'm totally the cutest son in my family."

I love modesty like that.

Sue was a single mother used to adventure. She planned lots of road trips, loved NASCAR and had a thousand stories. She brought me up to speed on all the company scuttlebutt, and taught me how to get around the silence rule (instant messaging, and intercom calls :) Suddenly my days were full of inside jokes. Our human resource lady was really perky. Sue informed me that her maiden name was "Twinkle" (not really, it was something equally cutesy and perky, though) and took pains to announce her arrival ala the "Here Comes Miss America!" with "Now on the runway, Miss Human Resources - Katrina... TWINkle!" Ms. Twinkle would obligingly do a catwalk turn before entering her office. I wonder if she thought it was funny like we did?

Joe was young and naive, and Sue and I had a good time 'educating' this fine young man.

Example: A friend of mine was at a bar, talking to a cute guy. Our other friend was sitting next to her, saying "cornhole, cornhole, cornhole" under her breath. Friend #1 was flirting away, when the desired subliminal effect took hold. "I'm graduating from cornhole this year. Did I just say CORNHOLE?" Yeah, the guy was really impressed.

I repeated this tale at work, Sue and Joe laughed appreciatively. The next day, Joe comes back looking sheepish. apparently, he went home to his mama, and kept slipping the word 'cornhole' into conversation. He thought it was funny, but he had NO IDEA what he was saying. His mom freaked out. And he reported this back to us. And we STILL had to explain what it meant. Aahahahaha! Can you guess what we nicknamed Joe? Good times, good times.

*note: apparently Joe is not the only person unsure on "cornhole." It's actually a game but also is a slang word for, uh, the place where you go poopie.

Anyway, then the company hired a new manager. Oh man. She brought her little poodle with mangy butt issues and decorated her office with poster prints like those '80s parrots and jungle cats. She had an unfortunate last name, that with the aid of white-out and a manual typewriter was easily transformed on her business cards to read "Skank." This was Sue's idea. I'm not that wicked.

Anyhoo, Ms. Skank had a braying laugh. She sounded just like a donkey. We were beside ourselves the first time we heard it. Especially since she would break into the braying to say "isn't that HILARIOUS?" and "Could you just DIE?" Sue, ever quick on the uptake,
coined a phrase that is part of my lexicon to this day.

Anything idiotic was greeted with "Can I get a Hee Haw?" at which point Joe and I would repeat "Hee Haw." And then we'd laugh like donkeys. As time wore on, the Haw seemed superfluous, and "Can I get a hee?" seemed to do the trick nicely. As luck would have it, I ended up leaving shortly after learning I was pregnant with my first.
To this very day, I find myself saying in my sarcastic inner voice "Hee Haw!" at choice moments.

There you have it. A touching recollection of a formative employment experience, which probably scarred innocent perky people and donkey laughing bosses for life.

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It did my catty little heart so much good today to open the newspaper and find a photo of my hubs' first wife standing outside her workplace. It was a full length, shot from the profile, so that her outline was really emphasized.

Did I say MY butt was big? Non, cherie. HER butt is BIG. And the angle, let us say, was unkind in revealing her chin region. Let's make it a double! I kept my cattiness in my head. I have no business being a cat. At all. Dude, I've seen my own butt. Last night. And we're not talking about my chins.

I was getting ready to rush out and donate blood or to clothe some orphans to make up for my lapse in positive thinking. But then - cue the rainbows and sparklers - my hubs called me from work and said "Did you see the photo of my ex? She looks smaller in the chest. Could be because her butt is so huge. Then again, her butt was always huge. And her face did nothing for me. Must be because you (Me!) are so adorable."

I am, I'm adorable! Abominable, catty and shallow, but adorable. Oh, and I'm not sore much at all.

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(No, this isn't a tribute to Eminem) I walked, get this: EIGHT MILES TODAY.
(That makes it 12 miles already this week. And it's Tuesday. Aaaaarrrrrrrrrgh!
I'm kicking ass and taking names! And selling wrapping paper for the PFA!) I'm
all triumphant about it right now, but you KNOW I'm going to be so sore tomorrow
that every step I take will be accompanied by mewling noises and quivering. On
another note, I've just returned from Back To School Night. I wore a cheesy
rayon blend wrap dress that looks fine from the front, if a little hooterific,
but I caught a backview on myself, and lemme say that:
I really miss my Crystal Gayle hair at times like this, because lordy I need
me some big hair to counter-balance my onion, and this shoulder length hair
just isn't froomphy enough.
It's a good thing I'm stacked, but I'm still confused about whose butt has
been switched with my formerly cute patootie.
It's a really good thing that I'm walking miles and miles, because I've
crossed the mythical border between bootylicious and The Butt That Ate San
Francisco.
I do not want to catch any more backviews of myself any time soon.

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My children do not realize how many grey hairs they cause me to sprout on a daily basis. If not for sweet Feria lovin', I would be the Bride of Frankenstein. Seriously.

I mean, I'm delighted to have spirited chill'en. Three tra-la-la spirited, bright, gifted children. I'm sure that the world is full of highly successful adults who are former spirited children. With all the whiz-banging and rollicking, joyous spirits around here, I'm thinking Nobel Freaking Prize. Next to an Oscar and a Pulitzer. On my freaking mantel.

Of course, I still have to raise 'em up right and all. So far, I seem to be able to keep them stimulated and challenged, by simply leaving objects I will need in the future in accessible areas. Never mind the educational toys and puzzles I provide. They have NOTHING on playing hide and seek.

"How sweet and wholesome!" I know you're thinking it. But no. Les Enfants Terribles of the Circus enjoy swiping car keys, wallets, jewelry, bills... and then relocating them to child-selected safehouses. The FBI has nothing on my yahoos when it comes to fake IDs and relocating to small town Nebraska.

Their penchant for subterfuge started years ago, when my oldest was just over 2. I left my diamond ring on the bedside table. When I returned for it, she covered her mouth with her hand and giggled gleefully. "Where is my ring?" I asked. "Bookshelf!" A quick inspection of the bookshelf turns up nada. "Where is my ring?" I try again. "Window!" No. "WHERE is my ring?" I demand. She is getting really excited now, bouncing on her toes and tee heeing away. "Flush. Potty. Bye-bye!"

I continue questioning her, and she changes her answer with each round. Three months later it turned up against the baseboards behind our bed. So why? Why all the drama?

My son has picked up the torch, and frequently removes my wallet from my purse in the car while I am unloading or loading things. When I get within viewing range, he will casually flip it under the seat or into the rear of the van. I tear the vehicle apart, while my son looks concerned and says "I think you dropped it at the school," or "I saw it on the sidewalk, Mommy." When it turns up behind his
carseat? "Silly Mommy. When did you put it there?"

Can you SEE the grey hair sprouting? I think I can actually hear it. It makes little screaming noises.

Which brings me around to this morning. Car keys. Gone. "Where are the keys?" I just start off at a growl now. Kills the buildup a bit, but you know, it's an art - witty repartee' and sometimes a mama just doesn't have time for that nonsense.

"Aaah!" offers my son.

"Keys!" I say, emphatically.

"Daddy has keys..." ventures the boy. He's quaking under the Eye Of Enraged Mother, but it's a faux-quake. He cowers so well that we have nicknamed him Gollum.

"Please. Get. Up. We. Need. To. GO." I try again. Lamaze breathing hee hee hee hoo hoo hoo.

At this point he bursts into noisy, cartoonish wailing, complete with thrown back head, gaping mouth and tears that project outwards from his eye sockets in visible dotted lines. "Waaaaaaaaah!" Every time I ask, I get a different answer, ranging from stuffed in the fireplace to eaten by the dog. None of them lead to the keys. Late this evening, I finally found them. In the drawer of our entertainment center, behind all the DVDs. Because, yes, okay. That makes sense.
TO A FREAKO.

The punishment for this crime? I take away favorite toys, assign
chores, have VERY. EARNEST. heart to heart talks with my children about the VERY. BAD. things that could happen if I needed the missing items RIGHT THAT MINUTE. They are largely unmoved. They nod, they apologize, the boy even busts out a "Mommy, please FORGIVE me waaaah!" but then a few days pass and those little fingers start itching again. I close my eyes and imagine myself humming serenely while I dust the Nobel Freaking Prize and put a spit-shine on the
Oscar, while the internationally televised thank you speech rings in my ears:

"And to my mother, who lost her looks and her sanity because of me, but never managed to crush my spirit..."

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This morning, the hubs took my oldest to Kindergarten, allowing me to wallow in
the luxury of not rushing out before eight o'clock. My four year old son started
swimming lessons today, but not until ten, so I was able to move at a sedate
pace while getting ready. At nine-thirty, I walked by the mirror in the hall
where we place our keys. Mine? Not there. Again. This is a subject worthy of its
own lengthy rant. I quickly surveyed the most likely locations for the missing
keys. No. No. No no no no. Looks like we are walking to the pool. It's a mile,
no biggie. I have time to get there, so I load the baby and the boy in the
stroller and head out. Our heatwave has ended, and in its place, the air was
tinged with a crispness that made me want to take big strides and breathe deep.
Oh, and wear tweed. But that is another subject worthy of its own entry. My son
spent the entire 20 minutes of our walk asking questions. "Are we going to
Grandma's? Are we lost? Where is the egg-plant? Are we going to school? Are you
going to hop like a bunny?" Gah. We get to the pool, unload, boy swims, baby
squirms on my lap and yells "WIM! WIM!" and flails herself toward to edge of the
pool. At the end of the lesson, we dry him off and dress him warmly, then start
the walk back home. Miraculously, both kids fall asleep within a minute or two.
Then it was just me and my thoughts. Okay, granted there was some sort of
motorcycle rally going on, and the street I was walking down was full of
traffic, but I saw the sun shining and heard the creek babbling and the trees
rustling and even with the noise from the surrounding cars and businesses, it
was just ME. And I was THINKING. About STUFF. About a year ago, I had a dream
that I had taken up oil painting. I was pretty good too. But in my dream, my
three children kept snatching my canvases and smearing them, and try as I may, I
could never get away. A startling moment in that dream found me curled in the
fetal position while my children pummelled me, literally knocking the urge for
creativity right out of me. I woke in a cold sweat, but had to laugh. I have
always been a creative person, but lately I just can't get started. Not even a
little. I have come to the conclusion that if I want any vestiges of creativity
of my OWN making, I am going to have to fight for it. Being a parent makes for
an interesting dilemma. I nurture my family, but allow myself to wither. There
is no easy answer, either. Someone is always going to think you're a martyr or
selfish. Or both.

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My hubs bounded out of bed this morning. I raised a bleary eyelid in time to
catch him spiking an imaginary pigskin at the foot of the bed, followed by a
spirited rendition of his funky chicken engineer endzone dance. In his best
announcer voice, he intoned "Is anybody ready for some football?" I pulled the
covers back over my head. My "hell, no" was muffled, but adamant. The only thing
good about football season is it really does encourage hors d'oervres and dips.
I love bellying up to a table with lots of dipping options. And chili. One
craves a nice bowl of chili, while one is rooting for one's team. But the game?
Woo. Giant men crashing into one another. Arg! Ooof! It's good! Sack 'em! And
the commercials. Thank you TiVo. The hubs loves it. Not just for the dip,
either. He actually yells at the TV when he gets all worked up. Like that's
gonna help. Granted, I have been known to yell at the TV, too, but usually at
Matt and Sheri on Room by Room. They just get me all fired up. And I did the
funky chicken endzone dance when they eliminated several people off of Survivor.
So it's a family thing. My kids bust out with the Cabbage Patch when they find
all three clues on Blue's Clues. The Wiggles encourage air guitar. I've noticed
that most of the kids shows we watch encourage dancing and yelling out things at
the TV, so I guess we're training 'em young. Go Team.

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'Tis the season. Every year, from late August through the end of October,
traffic along one of our major freeway corridors slows to a crawl for a 5 mile
stretch. The culprit lies on the western side of the freeway. It's a large
pumpkin patch, with a corn maze. Granted, we live in an agricultural area, and I
appreciate the splendor that is corn. Pumpkins, also. Love them pumpkins. But,
uh... do we need to creep by these things at 5 miles an hour? We apparently do.
Because year after year, day after day, from the first green shoots to the final
hurrah on November 1st when they plow the pumpkins under with big ole tractors,
it's brake lights and rubbernecks until you get past the patch. Then, *poof* the
spell is broken, and people remember they are on the freeway. I initially
thought people were just watching the school kids and tourists. That's
understandable, you know. Awww, kids are so cute, punkinheads waddling around
carrying giant orange orbs. But get this: my husband, who drives past this
mirage of Autumn twice daily tells me that even when the sun's first rays are
just breaking over the hills, the drivers still are compelled to swivel heads to
the right, mouths agape. After the floodlights have been shut off, and the gates
locked for the night, still the traffic crawls by. What? It's CORN. CORN. What
is so fascinating? Is everyone looking for the Great Pumpkin? Creeping
themselves out with memories of Children of the Corn? Honestly, I'd be less
baffled if there was some sort of signs or flashing lights to draw attention,
but no. It's just CORN. And pumpkins. So, um, DRIVE!

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See?!?

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See! I'm Tintin.

Also, let's note that it's a shadow on the wall...my eyebrows
do not meet in a point on the bridge of my nose. And, my eyelashes are THAT sad
and stubby.

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I think I broke a land-speed record getting my oldest to school this morning.
Well, maybe land-speed, while on foot in broken down Target brand sneakers with
a huge ass stroller that corners like a tractor-trailer loaded down with
sixty-seven pounds of kids plus miscellaneous juice boxes, backpacks and plastic
dinos, in hot pursuit of a five and a half year old Evil Kanevil wanna be in a
pink princess helmet who mocks the limitations of a girlie bike with training
wheels by leaping off curbs with sparkly handlebar streamers flying, hollering
"Whee!" kind of record. Despite my best intentions, we still were running late.
Oh, I don't know, could have been my son's insistence on Chicken Nuggets for
breakfast. Could have been me forgetting that it was "teddy bear parade" day,
necessitating a rush around looking for "Cowie" since my daughter prefers her
stuffed cow instead of a bear like normal children. Could have been the three
outfit changes for my youngest, who made like Jackson Pollack with her yogurt,
and then took a (washable at least) marker to her next outfit. But I'm not going
to blame the kids. Really, it's pretty much all me. Me me me me me. I'm having
another cup of coffee. Right now. In other, somewhat related news: I am growing
my bangs out, and had pulled the rest of my hair back into a ponytail. I just
caught a look at myself in the mirror and my rebellious, forward growing bangs
have poofed themselves up into an elaborate curly-queue. With the rest of my
hair pulled back at the nape of my neck, I look exactly like Tintin.
Bwahahahahaha!

<__trans phrase="Posted by [_1] on [_2]" params="Jenny%%September 17, 2004 8:32 AM"> | <__trans phrase="Permalink"> | <__trans phrase="Comments"> (0)

I drove to the school this morning, so I could continue on to the grocery store.
I'm such a cheater. My son obviously slept well, or the toast I served this
morning, with his name written in left-over icing, wired him beyond belief. This
boy of mine does not respond to his name, nor does he slow one iota, no matter
what. He even shakes his head and flaps his arms while he runs, and sometimes
makes an accompanying sound like "laller, laller, laller, laller." I'm SO proud.
Anyway, we managed to get my oldest into class, and despite several break and
run incidents, got the boy and the baby back into carseats and headed for the
store. We shopped. And shopped. We bought all manner of healthy, nutritious
foods, as well as a box of 'fruit snacks' which have no fruit in them, and no
appeal either, at least to my sophisticated palate. But they had Dora on the
box. "Dora!" shouts my baby. "Booooots!" "No, honey, we don't eat those. Yucko."
I give it a half-hearted try. "DORA!" "No, no, you don't want those." I try
again. She makes a sound like an air-raid siren. For a moment, I go to war with
myself. Tantrum. Not to be rewarded. Must. Not. Cave. Must. Not. Cave... "Here,
honey, you hold the box." Silence. Bliss. Back at home, I put away the booty and
started smearing the dirt around my kitchen floor, with the excellent aid of my
Swiffer battery powered self-lubricating maxi-pad. Ooh, that looks so much
better, I thought to myself. The dog, who was watching me from the hall,
suddenly raised her ears, and then turned and sprinted, leaping through our open
front window. She began leaping and barking at the fence. I stuck my head around
the corner just in time to see the box from Amazon.com bounce off the dog's head
and land upside down on the cement. Excellent! "Give it a rest, Donna," I growl
as I stroll out to retrieve the package. My new 512MB card for my digital
camera. Now I can take zillions of photos and not worry about room or
resolution. Woo! I quickly swapped out the 32MB card from the camera. Just then,
my son came bounding into the kitchen, sans pants. "Mommy! You wanna see what I
did on the potty?" "Uh, no, honey, you can just flush it." "Mommy! There's a
sinker and a floater!" "Uh..." "You wanna take a picture of it?" "Uh..." "Mommy,
I'm a big boy! Hey! Wanna take a picture of my dingus? Laller Laller Laller
Laller." Oh, help. It's not even noon.

<__trans phrase="Posted by [_1] on [_2]" params="Jenny%%September 16, 2004 11:37 AM"> | <__trans phrase="Permalink"> | <__trans phrase="Comments"> (0)

I was all worried about the care and keeping of a kindergartener. I was certain
to be the most disorganized, least fashionable mother. As usual, I was worrying
about the wrong things. We get there on time. We even walk the whole way. In 90+
degree heat. And I don't complain. I have yet to forget about a lunch, or to
neglect to return forms. (I know, it's only been three weeks, go easy on me,
eh?) I'm good like that. But then, wham. I peel open the My Pretty Pony backpack
today and there it is. FALL 2004 FUNDRAISER! YOUR KID WINS PRIZES THAT ARE A
BUNCH OF WORTHLESS JUNK IF SHE SELLS A BOATLOAD OF OVERPRICED CRAP TO YOUR
FRIENDS, FAMILY AND EVEN PERFECT STRANGERS! Start stalking your neighbors! Now.
NOW! I hate fundraising. I did appreciate the note that "Children should be
accompanied by a parent when selling door-to-door. Children should not knock on
the doors of unfamiliar homes after dark." Can't I just write a check to the
PTA? Would that speak ill of my school spirit? And then, the school photo day.
You can select the basic package, against a 'slate' background, or for ONLY $2
more, you can 'upgrade' to Arctic, Freedom, Sky, Purple Passion or Fall Colors.
I'm thinking I'll dress her like an Eskimo and go with Artic, but then, I'm open
for suggestions. They also suggest adding "soft-focus" for an additional $3.
Because your elementary student needs a warmer, softer finish. What? Save the
Cybil Sheppard lighting for the acne prone teens, okay? And THEN, I get a call
saying my son's preschool has been moved to the center across town. This throws
off my whole plan of walking my son to his school. I'm irritated. Now I have to
either hustle to find him a new class, nearby, or I keep him home until January.
Not the end of the world, but still. I was beginning to look forward to having
an hour or two with just the baby. But, the good news is: my oldest loves her
school, and I'm delighted, too. Now, if I can just weasel out of selling
door-to-door, and land on the perfect outfit to go with a Purple Passion
background...

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I love Kevin Bacon. There. I admit it. Last night, I was treated to VH-1's
presentation of Footloose. I've seen Footloose something like 500 times. In
fact, I saw it probably 50 times when it was first in the theaters. So let me
see... it came out in 1984, so I was 11 at the time. It had the potential to be
a major, formative influence in my young adolescent life. We lived in the
suburbs, next to a shopping center with a tiny, two cinema movie theater. They
featured two dollar double features all summer long, to the delight of every
mother in town. "Here, take your brother and sister, and have a good time. See
you at dinner!" The place was always packed. It's been a few years since I
really watched it, beyond saying, "Hey! Footloose, on TV! I've seen that like
500 times!" and flipping channels. Anyway, I was fixated on Footloose last
night. Kevin Bacon. So hot. Love him. Lori Singer? Girl... EAT A MEAL. OR TEN. I
forgot about Sarah Jessica Parker. Hah! John Lithgow? Him, too? Oh, red cowboy
boots. I need some red cowboy boots. And then, I became progressively horrified
by the actual contents of the movie. Lots of smoking, underage drinking,
references to sex, cussing, lying to parents and other stupid rebellious stunts.
And really demure prom dresses. And skinny ties. And that scene where Ariel's
boyfriend smacks her around. And the time when Ariel's FATHER smacks her face.
What? I don't remember all this stuff. My memories of Footloose are pretty much
confined to the really silly dance numbers. I guess at the age of 11, those
other elements were lost in the "Oooh! Kevin BACON. He's so fine he blows my
MIND." But, wow. I really remembered it as a much more innocent movie. And that
cracks me up. Have I become a prude since becoming a parent? I know that I view
so much of the world differently. I want to protect my children from the
majority of the thematic elements from Footloose. I doubt my parents were aware
of the content, but at the tender age of 11, the negative elements were not what
I remembered about the movie. It didn't even register. I wonder how long the
innocence filter lasts these days? I remember catching some Rocky and Bullwinkle
a few years back and found myself laughing at some of the jokes with a new
appreciation for the double entendres and subtle adult humor. How much of that
is buried in children's programming? My kids watch a variety of television
programs (I know, I know, must. kill. television. Flame away.) and although we
are careful to preview all programs, and use TiVo to eliminate advertisements,
we don't always watch together. Does Dora ever solve the Grumpy Old Troll's
riddle and cross into the next county for some underage drinking? Does Rolie
Polie Olie ever stoned and then get into a chicken fight with a tractor? Are
those perky Hi-5 singers doing skits about balancing on the window frames of two
moving cars? (Actually, wouldn't that be just like the Simpsons?) I have only
seen positive role-play come from the children's programming available today.
But I guess I had better pay attention. You never know when those Teletubbies
are going to start smoking and cussing. And who knows what the hell is going on
with those Boohbah critters.

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It seems that my children have been born into a family with a rich tradition of
head games. My son just announced that his eyes feel dirty. In concern, I
dropped to my knees and began tugging on eyelids and cheeks, trying to determine
the cause. He giggled, gave me a playful shove backwards and said "No, silly."
In slow motion, he brought a fist up to his eye. When he moved the fist, his eye
was closed in a dramatic wink. He moved his fist to his mouth, and flailed the
tip of his tongue around the inside of both cheeks, before returning his fist to
his eye. Both blue eyes twinkled at me as he grinned. "All clean. Grandpa showed
me." Ah yes, the old remove the eyeball and wash it in the mouth trick. My
sister has a special noise that she produces in the back of her throat that
makes it sound as though she has a few marbles rattling around inside her head.
She accompanies this with wild eye rolling. My children scream with glee at this
display of dingbattery. She has even managed to produce the sound so that it
sounds like the "marbles" are slowly rocking to a stop. She can also wiggle her
ears. Good times.

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"No surrender!" I gritted my teeth, squinted like a pirate and tried again. My
back spasmed in response to my twisting. I drew myself up to my full five feet
and squared my shoulders. That's it. I'm just going to have to stand in mountain
pose, forever. Last Thursday, I stepped awkwardly on a toy and hurt my back.
It's been better and worse, and better and worse. My computer chair aggravates
it. Walking helps. Sleeping causes spasms. Standing upright is good. Naturally,
this causes some frustration in the tired and cranky and blog-hungry spectrum.
I've walked my four miles today, and although I'm zingy from the O-so-good
coffee (Ha! O! Hee!) I would like to rest on something other than the soles of
my feet. I've been trying to use yoga to cure myself. I'd be lying if I said it
isn't fun to watch Pantyman serenely bend and stretch to the sound of new age
gongs and flutes. But helping? Not so much. All things considered, after a 800
mg horsepill of Advil, I felt ready to tackle folding a load of laundry. I could
remain mostly upright, and fold gingerly. Had to be done. Got several pairs of
socks matched. Folded a few tshirts. And then *slapping forehead* I reached for
a pair of panties toward the back of the pile. Guh-zzzzzzz! It felt like an
electric shock zooming up my back. I twitched, and then landed face down in the
pile of laundry. And down I stayed. I was folding on my bed, and when I reached,
the mattress caught me mid thigh. So I'm laying there, torso resting on the
laundry and stiff legs hanging off the mattress. Uh... I gave a feeble push with
my arms. Ouch. I wiggled my legs. Ouch. I tried to roll to my left. Ouch. I
tried to roll to my right. Ouch. Okay, OUCH OUCH OUCH. Sign me up for the Darwin
Awards, folks. I'm fixin' to smother myself in a load of laundry. Summoning all
my resolve, and trying not to laugh, I manage to leverage myself into a cockeyed
push-up position, at which point my legs tip to the floor, and before I can get
my feet positioned, my stiff carcass slides sideways onto the floor. Landing
with a thud and a weak mewling noise, I look up to find my youngest standing
over me. "Mommy boom! Ta-daaaa!" I do my best jazz hands for her sake, and she
applauds and RiverDances in my honor. "Mommy TA-DAAAA!" I roll to my side,
and... wait, not painful. I push to a sit. No. Can't be. NO PAIN. Deciding that
this moment calls for the ultimate test, I lunge one knee forward and throw my
arms into the air. "Supah-Star!" I am healed! I am healed!

<__trans phrase="Posted by [_1] on [_2]" params="Jenny%%September 13, 2004 7:38 PM"> | <__trans phrase="Permalink">

Oh, it's true, it's all true! Senseo is really great coffee. Yes! Yes! Yes!
Excuse me while I go wash the foam off of my face. Even my hubs agrees. It
really is orgasmic. Go on, rush out and get yourself one.

<__trans phrase="Posted by [_1] on [_2]" params="Jenny%%September 13, 2004 10:42 AM"> | <__trans phrase="Permalink">

As I was drifting off to sleep last night, I caught a whiff of the past. My old
cowboy boots had been shoved unceremoniously under my side of the bed by one of
my children. The scent of worn leather wafted up to rest on my pillow, and I
found myself standing in the tiny ranch house kitchen of my dear friend and
country dancing buddy. I glanced around and saw the pile of wet boots by the
door, the fifteen varieties of munchies and the empty coke cans from a 2am
refueling. A surge of joy built in my chest and I released a giggle into the
still of my bedroom. My husband stirred in his sleep, and I drifted off, awash
in recollection. The sense of smell is a powerful weapon against a leaky memory.
I spent a summer in Japan when I was 15 year old. Every couple of years, the air
around me will briefly take on characteristics that leave me mentally wandering
the sidewalks of Osaka. Each place I've been has a distinct aroma that calls to
me. More instinct than conscious action, my brain has catalogued these
atmospheric elements. The beach where we celebrated my son's fourth birthday is
the same beach where I took my own first steps as a baby. The tang of the salt
air, the smell of drying seaweeds on the gravelly sand are imprinted in my mind.
A lifetime of memories rush back to me when we open the car doors on the cliffs
above the beach. I become the child who posed with seaweed like a feather boa
and scoured the tidepools for signs of life. I become the preteen who wore a
bathing suit despite the freezing surf, and the teenager who sat on the rocks
and rehashed conversations with friends and talked about cute boys. My first
joyful trip to the beach as a mother combines with the long remembered trips of
my own babyhood in the sweetness of salt water taffy, bought from a roadside
shack. The sense of smell is remarkable. It entices with the perfume of a
passing stranger and causes me to salivate when my favorite dishes are prepared.
A baby, minutes old, knows his own mother by her smell. There is comfort in a
familiar scent and excitement in an exotic spice. These mental getaways are
always surprising. Like a favorite song from an earlier time in my life, certain
smells send me on olfactory flights of fancy, remembering in great detail the
people, places and events that occurred. My brother has no sense of smell. He
did, before his body was attacked by Lyme's Disease at the age of nine. It has
been problematic for him - he can't tell if the gas pilot has been left on, or
if there is an unfamiliar smell. It distorts his ability to taste food. I've
never asked him about how he remembers things. It makes me sad to think that he
has been robbed of the pleasures of smell. On the other hand, my husband's
brother stayed with us last Christmas, and informed me that he eschews
deodorant, because he has been told by women that "they love his musky
goodness." Okay, look. If he said he was allergic, or that he couldn't bring
himself to slather chemicals in his pits, but he showered after major exertion,
I MIGHT have some sympathy. But the men of my husband's family generate some
serious, knock you down at 1000 paces, nasty, rank, foul, oh my GOD is that
coming from your pits kind of stankyness. It's lethal. Musky Goodness. Hell, no.
I howl every time I think about that. Then again, I'm happy that there is a
special scent for everyone, musky or no.

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Sunday mornings were meant for sleeping in. My kids can't seem to get with the
program, so I've been up for two hours. I made the coffee, and got a glimpse at
the water reservoir. Apparently, it has been too long since I've done the citric
acid treatment. Scale as far as the eye can see. Oh, it was nasty. Nasty nasty
nasty. I was already through half a cup of coffee, too. Being thrifty and lazy,
I drank the rest of the cup. It is time to replace the coffee maker. And thanks
to Lauren of The New Jan Brady, I'm all over the Philips Senseo. I need that
machine. And so, I will load up the minivan with the family and head to the
Target Greatland. I will embrace the pod system. Perhaps I will enjoy my coffee
in new, sensual ways. It's just THAT good. Mmmmm. My husband just yelled "We
need Q-tips!" in a strangled voice. Uh, okay. Onto the list it goes. Reminds me:
on a grocery shopping excursion, long long ago, my mom was pulling out of the
driveway, and had made it halfway down the block when she glanced in the
rearview mirror and spotted my dad galloping down the street on foot, waving his
arms and yelping "We're out of MAYONNAISE!" Oh, the urgency of it all. Must.
Shop.

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When my daughter aimed the gesture at her brother, I was baffled. In fact, it's
a stroke of genius: You are looking at the kindergarten sign for "mouth closed,
ears open." Hah! I'm so going to be flashing that baby. So much nicer than
hollering "Zip yer trap n lissen up, y'all!"

<__trans phrase="Posted by [_1] on [_2]" params="Jenny%%September 11, 2004 8:57 PM"> | <__trans phrase="Permalink">

Part 1: The Beginning

I actually knew the moment I first saw him that he was the man for me. I knew it on a cellular level. I was sick as a dog, ripping open my second box of tissue of the morning. It was also my first day on my new job.

He walked into my office, spoke with the office manager, and then turned to say hello to me. I was in mid-nose-blow. I finished with a *honk* and returned his smile. He was wearing green slacks, and a green and white striped shirt, and when he said "You must be the new Accounts Payable person." I blurted "and you must be a leprechaun."

He looked at me like I was from another planet, and I quickly seized another tissue and resumed emptying my nasal cavities. I do love to make a great first impression, you know. That is why my nickname is Silky Smooth. Hah!

I called in sick on my second day, and he left that afternoon for a four week trip to Japan, China, Indonesia and Korea. I threw myself into learning my job, and continued to go out dancing several nights a week with my friends. He wasn't my type, anyway, I figured. Cute, but nerdy. A hard worker, stable, just nice. Really nice. But not for me.

When he returned from his trip, he made the rounds at the company. He had worked there for 6 years, and all the women treated him like a son or a brother. He brought little gifts back for most of the employees, and I was shocked when he stopped by my desk with a funny
little plastic swan. It was the size of a quarter, a gold plastic neck and tail with a giant red plastic gem for the body. "Uh, thanks?" I stammered. I was unsure what, if anything, I was supposed to do with a tiny, but very bling-bling swan. I put it on my desk.

Part 2: Plan of Attack

I was still unsure about my apparent crush on this man. He was so nice. And so nerdy. I learned from the office manager that he had been married for 6 months to his college sweetheart, and that she had cheated on him. Broken-hearted, he filed for divorce months before they would have celebrated their first anniversary.

Oh, now he was irresistible. He was all vunerable and stuff, which makes my heart go pitterpat. I knew he wasn't dating anyone. I asked him out. He said he was busy. I shook it off, and tried again a few days later. He declined again, but said he was free the next night. (I later learned that he was blowing me off because he was playing a very involved Nintendo Baseball tournament with his housemate. See,
nerdy, but cute.)

He picked me up the next night for our first date. We've been together ever since. Very early in our dating relationship, he was giving me a foot massage, and spent a minute removing lint from between my toes. That is true love, for sure. We moved in together a month later.

Part 3: All about ME

We passed two years together harmoniously. Then his job took an ugly turn. He was ready to move on. I was marking time in temp jobs, not wanting to do much of anything. We flew together to Portland, Oregon, so he could interview for a job. He was offered the job.

He was also recruited for a job in Silicon Valley, offering better everything. My heart sunk. I hate Silicon Valley. It's crowded, it's expensive, it's not where I wanted to be. I was willing to move to Oregon, but the thought of moving to San Jose made my stomach burn. I was torn when he decided to take the San Jose job.

I decided that if we got married, I would go, but if not, I didn't want to leave my family and friends. I broached the subject of marriage, and he rejected it out of hand. "I've already been married once, and we're happy, so what's the problem?'

I was a mess. I loved him, but I didn't want to move, and he had made his decision. I sobbed in a heap when the moving truck came and took his belongings away. We decided that we would continue our relationship long distance. We took turns driving back and forth on the weekends. I got busy with a new job, and he was busy with his. I was still sick at heart about the situation.

He figured would propose marriage in a few months and it would be fine. I figured that I would give it another month or two, and then I would be breaking it off for good and moving on with my life. We didn't discuss these thoughts. We were living firmly in the present.

A few weeks after a weekend trip to Monterey, I realized that I was late, and took a pregnancy test. In shock, I took 5 more of them. Lined up on my bathroom cabinet, all my wants and fears and demands were quieted. Those two blue lines made all the difference. We were engaged the next week, and I moved to the apartment in Silicon Valley, with the man-made river and the ducks.

Part 4: We Are Family

We were wed in a civil ceremony on September 11, 1998. Our oldest joined the family in March of 1999, followed by our son in September 2000. We thought we were going to take a break, and were surprised by the arrival of our youngest, born on Friday the 13th in December 2002.

It's been one thing after another, and we are ever growing and changing in the rapids of family life. There is much humor and love in our house. We are still learning how to navigate, but our raft is
sturdy. Six years, gone by in a blink. I'm looking forward to our Lucky Number 7. There'll be no itching here :)

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As my daughter was waking up this morning, I presented her with her outfit for
the day, a pink dress. "Mommy, I like wearing dresses, but..." "But what,
sweetheart?" "I think pants are better for the playground." "Oh, you don't want
to flash your panties at everyone, huh?" "I don't care who sees my panties.
Sheesh, Mommy. I just don't want to burn my butt on the slide." Alrighty then. I
produced a pair of shorts to wear under her dress. "Mommy, I want to BUY my
lunch today." "Are you sure? Let's see, it's pizza. Do you want to buy that?"
"YES. Mommy. Sheesh." I hand her her lunch money in an envelope. "Do you know
what to do?" "Uh, yeah. Duh." "Honey, it's really rude to say duh when someone
asks you a question." "Even if it's a silly question?" "Yes. I want you to speak
kindly and politely." "Let me guess, like a fine lady?" She is rolling her eyes
at me. "Fine ladies do not roll their eyes at their mothers." I admonish. "What
about this?" she asks as she curtsies nicely while crossing her eyes and
sticking out her tongue. I had to leave the room to keep from laughing. I fear
we need our etiquette DVDs now more than ever. Hah!

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We made it to Friday. Er, uh, yes. Yes. It's Friday. We celebrated my son's
birthday (again) with a small party at a local park yesterday evening. With
temperatures in the low 90s, the shady park with the nice breeze was a fantastic
place for the kids AND the parents to just hang out and relax. I tweaked my back
but good about 15 minutes before the party, so I'm walking like a 90 year old. I
know better than to just lay down and suffer though. I'm going to attempt some
gentle yoga when we get back from our walk to school. I can't afford to be down
a day. My husband's work is really demanding right now. He's cranky a lot
lately. I would be, too. He is the Sales Manager for an injection molding
company, and he spends a lot of time entertaining clients and flying across
country on a moment's notice to save or cement a sale. He is good at his job,
but the long hours and butt-kissing gets old. *Poor Me Alert* Most days he can
go into his job a little late, if I have a morning appointment, or come home
early. With the huge surge of new business they are working on, he is in early
and home late more often than not. So lately, when I need help, I'm on my own.
Like today, with my gimp back. But it's Friday. And my big girl loves
kindergarten. She walks out of that classroom with a bounce in her step, and is
already running with a posse of little girls, all with crooked pigtails and
smocked front dresses. They all have old lady names too, just like my girl,
which is hilarious. You can just picture them in their dotage. My son tells me
I'm beautiful, even when he's wiping snot on my shirt. And my baby calls me
Ah-hoe with a guileless smile. Tomorrow is our 6th Anniversary. Six years, three
kids. Getting married on 9-11 was supposed to be a joking reference to the fact
that I was pregnant at the time. We went to a baseball game the day after we
married. We took our oldest to her first game the next year. We weren't able to
get tickets the following year... Pacific Bell Park was brand new, and my son
was born just days before our anniversary. Our third anniversary found me home
on a weekday, staring in horror at CNN footage of the World Trade Center in my
bedroom, while my children played in the other room. Since then, it's not really
the kind of day where you go out and pop champagne corks. We'll go out to
dinner, I think. My mom will watch the kids for us. Ironically, my husband's
divorce from his first wife was finalized on Pearl Harbor Day, two years before
we met. We just have a knack for memorable dates.

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Three Sick Kid Circus
Stepped on toy, my back is out
Dog pooped on carpet

Wrote long blog but poof! .
Can't sit long in this death chair.
I'm big fat whiner.

No wine in this house.
Only juice boxes and milk
Not even a beer.

Tomorrow I will
Compose funny blog, tonight
Sit around bitching.