Not Again
Oh, lookie. Jenny's got issues again. Shocker.
Seriously, since yesterday I can't shut off my brain. It is on autopilot, full of cuh-raaaaa-zee ideas about a zillion different things. I can't focus for anything. It's like riding a motorcycle 60 miles an hour through a cloud of insects, with no helmet or even goggles. I'm charging full speed ahead, eyes squinted on the center line to keep on the road. I've got winged ideas squashed all over my face, in my hair, in my teeth, and I'm unable to slow down to wipe them off.
I also have that manic energy I had a while back, before the kids got so sick. It's an uncomfortable level of zip, maybe from the busy brain, or I guess it could work the other way around, too. I am having a hard time harnessing all this power for good, since my idjit brain is busy going laller laller laller and running around flapping.
Some fine superhero I'll make. I'm Super Spaz!
Basically, there is a buzz in my ear telling me to start writing, and giving me little snippets, suggesting situations, literally (and literarily, I suppose) poking at me while I wash dishes, shower, switch laundry. Is this what inspiration feels like? I've always been on the dull, sane side of things, no driving force besides basic urges, you know, like, needing to eat or use the bathroom. I've never been compelled to carry a notebook and jot down crazy notes before.
Yet, here I am, jotting and dashing off little moments, even waking in the night to scribble something that is illegible this morning. The question is: How long will the mania last, and what, if anything, do I do about it?
Comments
I recommend Xanax.
If you prefer the drug-free approach, you can train your creativity to spark at certain times of the day by sitting down to write every day at those times. Eventually your brain will comply. Also, less coffee might help.
But me? I prefer Xanax. :-)
Posted by: notdonnareed | June 20, 2005 11:44 AM
From the brief sampling of blogs I've visted today, there seems to be a theme forming: either people are rushing around with a million things to do and their minds are in high gear, or they are at the other end of the spectrum, lazing about with malaise and depression and lack of desire to blog or do anything. Perhaps there's been a change-of-seasons energy shift?
Posted by: Mellie Helen | June 20, 2005 4:03 PM
Sounds to me like the beginnings of your book...finally!
Posted by: Stephanie C. | June 20, 2005 5:14 PM
Unless it threatens to be your undoing, just let it come! Ever so much better than forcing stuff and digging for potatoes where there are none. I agree with Mellie Helen on the energy shift...
Posted by: vicki | June 20, 2005 7:39 PM
I find that I often have half a dozen posts in draft form kicking about in Blogger, they happen in two parts. The inspiration for the post itself starts the first part, then when I return to it it inspires me to continue.
Either way, you're doing grand, I love dropping by and catching up!
Posted by: Kal | June 21, 2005 2:22 AM
Must be something in the water. Or maybe that buzzing is the ghost of that fly *grin*
I had to do the notebook thingy a little while ago when I was deluged with idea's for cross stitch designs. I can't draw yet but at least all those ideas are written down now for when I can :)
Posted by: Kitty | June 21, 2005 6:54 AM
There is actually a disorder, brought on by stress usually, that causes people to contstantly write. Like you described, waking up in the middle of the night to jot something down, writing on paper towels, etc. Wish I could remember what it was called, I only recall reading an article about it. You should talk to your doc about it.
Posted by: cgarrett | June 21, 2005 11:51 AM
Let me know what it is and I'll write it down.
Posted by: Busy Mom | June 21, 2005 6:53 PM
If you're Super Spaz, I'm your archnemesis, Super Laz! Someone come peel my arse off this couch!
Posted by: Shanonn | June 23, 2005 11:19 AM
Badumpump!
Posted by: cgarrett | June 23, 2005 5:58 PM