A Noble Attempt
So, yeah. I didn't have coffee this morning, because I thought maybe it was causing the insomnia I've been struggling with the last few days. I caved after a few hours, because who am I kidding. I haven't slept more than an hour or two a night in four days.
Basically, I'm all "Lallerlallerlallerlallerlallerlallerlallerlallerlallerlallerlaller" and wanting to run around in circles, waving my hands over my head. I'm just to that insane state of sleep deprivation where EVERYTHING is a mental effort. I stared at the baguette on my counter for a good three minutes, waiting for it to magically be sliced. Everything is also very funny. I'm sort of feebleminded, but giddy. This would be a good day to watch the Sound of Music again, I suspect.
Ooh! Or Seven Brides for Seven Brothers!
But, because I am an adult, I'm trying to put on a good show. It doesn't help that the thumping of the tennis shoes in the dryer is making me laugh. This is really not a time to be moved to hysterical tears, and yet "boom boom, bah boom boom!" is really busting me up.
See, even though I tucked the kids into bed at 8, and climbed under the covers, I lay there just thinking and thinking about stupid stuff. And then I rolled over and decided to try to clear my mind by visualizing a sponge wiping my brain clean, and ended up giggling over the thought of Spongebob Squarepants in my brain. I was up and down all night, finally dropping into a deep sleep around in the wee hours of the morning.
I've got to get some rest tonight - I'm just hoping my brain will cooperate.
Comments
Four days of restless sleep could make anyone nuts. Sorry to hear that. I only have one suggestion: decaf. Or does that defeat the purpose of coffee for you?
Posted by: Stephanie C. | March 15, 2006 3:05 PM
I am not sleeping either and I am so freaking tired. It's not good, at all. I even attempted a little blue over the counter sleep aid last night and that didn't help AT all, til the wee hours of the morning. And when the alarm went off at 6am, I had great difficulty getting up. Not good. We need sleep. Somehow. Soon.
Posted by: Denise | March 15, 2006 3:09 PM
It finally took Elavil to calm my brain at night. I would lay there and my mind would just spin otherwise. It has been the greatest thing ever.
But I loved (not) when the dr told me I should cut back on caffeine. I just looked at her and said, "You obviously don't have three kids. If I cut back the caffeine then I am no longer mommy. I am zombie!"
Good luck, Jenny. I'll be thinking ouf you!
Posted by: buffi | March 15, 2006 7:41 PM
Oh my god. I haven't slept well in three weeks! is it catchy? It seems to be going around. hate it hate it hate it. The only thing that kind of helps me is perscription sleeping pills (Any one got a few they could spare?) or reading before bed. That tires me out...
Good luck sleeping tonight. And wish me luck too. It's been three weeks!
Posted by: rebecca eckler | March 15, 2006 9:12 PM
I suffer from chronic insomnia. It sucks. But I'm glad your dryer is amusing you.
Oh, I found your blog from mommybloggers.
Posted by: Melissa | March 15, 2006 11:16 PM
Yeah, me too. It took me four tries to get this typed. I was going to leave the errors in for humor, but the English Teacher in me was beating my psyche with a ruler. ow! It's called creative license!
Posted by: Jenn2 | March 16, 2006 11:01 AM
I hate it when you know you need to get sleep and all you can think about is why Melissa got kicked off American Idol-at least that is what I did last night :) I haven't had three nights in a row, but one night and I am exhausted the next day. Get some rest!
Posted by: EmilyRoseJewel | March 16, 2006 7:53 PM
Jenny,
I don't want you to take this the wrong way, but have you discussed psych diagnoses with your therapist? like Bipolar? I don't go around pathologizing everyone, but some of the things you mention (lack of sleep, the racing thoughts, late night running around) for the last 4 days sorta sounds like an episode of mood elevation. I love reading your blog and have been lurking for over a year now-I hope you feel better.
Best,
Jen
Posted by: jen | March 18, 2006 1:08 AM