Shaking Like A Leaf
After school today, I took the kids to the park. I had promised to buy them a popsicle from the vendor as a bribe to get them moving quicker this morning.
I left my wallet in the car, and with all three kids in tow, we walked down the sidewalk to where the van was parked, at the edge of the street. I opened the side door of the van, leaned inside to grab the wallet, and suddenly, my three-year-old was off like a shot, running around the end of the van and straight into the busy street.
I saw her start to dash, and began to scream.
"NO! No! NOOOOO! Stop! Freeze!" as I fought to disentangle myself and reach her. As she giggled her way into the middle of the street, and I dashed behind, screeching at the top of my lungs, I heard tires squeal.
The bumper of an SUV stopped six inches from my baby's head.
I swooped her up, hysterically thanking the driver for seeing her and stopping, and simultaneously scolding and crying, and freaking out and scolding her back to her carseat, where I buckled that five-point harness and collapsed onto the curb, shaking like a leaf. Cars wizzed by on the other side of the van, where moments before, my daughter had dashed, barefoot and squealing with glee.
I fought back the nausea that rose in my throat, said a quick prayer of thanks to whatever guardian angel stepped in and stopped that truck, and handed my oldest a couple of dollars to buy herself and her brother a popsicle. She trotted across the lawn, and returned with a selection of popsicles, one for each kid. I sat and quaked.
For twenty minutes, I was wracked with cold sweats and tremors. And then I closed the door to the van, drove home, and after shooing the kids into the house, I stood outside our fence, just crying like a baby.
I'm starting to feel like we've used up too many of our freebies. I think I lost about 10 years off my life with that one.
Comments
OMG. I am terrified just reading that. So so scary.
Posted by: Elaine | April 27, 2006 6:37 PM
Oh J! Holy crap! My stomach just dropped reading that. Thank god she's ok! Huge hugs to you! Breathe.
(no need to post) wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you!
Posted by: Cookie | April 27, 2006 7:18 PM
Phew! I know exactly what you mean. It makes you think how lucky you are hey?
Posted by: Rebecca | April 27, 2006 8:45 PM
How utterly terrifying, and every mother's worst nightmare.
Glad everyone is (physically) okay.
Posted by: Chrissie | April 27, 2006 8:49 PM
*HUGS* Wow... I'm with you on thanking ThePowersThatBe! *moreZenhugs!*
Posted by: Asa | April 27, 2006 8:58 PM
Thank. The. Lord.
Posted by: dorothy | April 27, 2006 9:04 PM
That is one of my worst fears. I was crying at the end with you. Wow. Glad she's ok. Thank God.
Posted by: Melissa | April 27, 2006 10:55 PM
Whoa! I can not imagine how you must've felt; the sheer terror. I'm glad you're all safe.
Posted by: Stephanie C. | April 27, 2006 10:57 PM
Oh my God...this post made me cry, just thinking about how scared you must have been. Thank goodness she's okay, and that the driver was paying attention and not on a cell phone or something! My 4 yr. old is fearless, and the other day, put the car in gear (it wasn't on) and rolled into the middle of the street as I stood 10 feet away. I was shaking too, and I've never run that fast! They just don't get that something bad can happen to them.
Posted by: baseballmom | April 27, 2006 11:35 PM
Oh, sweetie. ACK. I'm so glad all is well, but just reading about it made my heart leap into my throat. *hugs*
Posted by: Mir | April 27, 2006 11:41 PM
Jenny...you don't know me but I have been reading your blog for a few months now. I love you wit and a lot of yours and your husbands parenting tales sound so familiar. I have two crazy daughters and my husband constanly refers to this house as the zoo and the girls the monkeys.
My reason for commenting is that we nearly lost our ten year old the other week she was riding her scooter on the footpath and went to cross to visit a friend across the street. She was hit by a car and I thank whatever was watching over her at the time. She suffered no injuries save a lot of missing skin and some pretty nasty bruising. It took me over a week to stop crying every time I looked at her.
These kids certainly know how to scare the bejesus out of us..but I think it also makes us realise just how precious they are.
I wish you and your family well from an appreciative Australian reader.
Posted by: jibiibear | April 28, 2006 12:21 AM
That makes me feel sick and I don't have any children. Reminded me of a post a friend put up on her blog at http://www.milkmonstersmum.net/?q=node/43 which was just as horrible.
Love reading about the tales of the circus, they (usually) make me giggle a lot :-)
Posted by: Jo-less | April 28, 2006 1:46 AM
OMG!! I can only imagine. Massive hugs for you and your precious babies.
Posted by: Kitty | April 28, 2006 2:19 AM
God Jenny, that is SO scary. Things happen so fast. So glad everyone is ok.
Congrats on the ClubMom thing!
Posted by: Mega Mom | April 28, 2006 4:29 AM
I'm so glad that the driver was conscientious and had good brakes.
How scary.
Posted by: cassie-b | April 28, 2006 5:52 AM
Oh jenny, that is so scary. I am SO incredibly happy that she is okay. I hope you will be too.
(((HUGS)))
Posted by: chris | April 28, 2006 6:18 AM
Holy hell. I had to read that twice to make sure what I was seeing. I am shaking for you.
Posted by: Busy Mom | April 28, 2006 6:40 AM
Holy cow! My son did that to me once when he was about that age. I caught him by the tiniest bit of shirt just a second or so before it would've been too late. I kept thinking, what if I wouldn't have been able to catch him?
Thank God she's alright.
Posted by: Colleen | April 28, 2006 6:57 AM
I have to remind myself to breathe now. Thank God she is ok.
Posted by: Em | April 28, 2006 7:05 AM
wow it was a very good thing the driver was paying enough attention and not talking on a cell phone or something to see your little one dart out into traffic. a woman hit and killed a 5-year old boy here last year as he got off the school bus because she was talking on her cell phone and didn't have her full awareness.
it's scary how i read people's blogs about their families - about their happy lives and accomplishments - and then all of a sudden a huge life-changing event occurs with them or their family and i feel as if i am their neighbor or something and it hits me really hard. that's how i felt when i read your post... like i want to say "phew! that was close" and give you a hug.
Posted by: Laurie | April 28, 2006 7:07 AM
Jenny,
I am so greatful that she is okay. Thank gawd it was a observant driver, and your are so quick on your toes. Give her big (((hugs))).
Posted by: Tamie | April 28, 2006 7:11 AM
What they all said, and yikes! Since I'm not a hugger, I'll just sort of reach over and pat your arm and give you a sympathetic glance.
Lately I've been asking myself - how is it that I could train my dog to stay, come back, and behave - but not my two year old? Josie, tends to bolt and test me and freak me out too. Free will is over-rated.
Posted by: Marla | April 28, 2006 7:30 AM
Holy moly! Eek! That's so scary! Thankfully my son has never done that... and I can't even imagine how you felt!
Thank goodness she is okay! Someone was watching over you all! (((hugs)))
Posted by: froggie mama | April 28, 2006 8:03 AM
This is the first time I have read your blog in a long while. Holy Bats. I understand that physical reaction you had. I hope your nerves can calm down. Thank the Lord she is ok. When something similar happened to us it was the first time I realized how loud I could yell. The earth was shaking. I'm so glad she's ok. (((hugs)))
Posted by: lazymommy | April 28, 2006 8:20 AM
OMG! That's happened to me. Colby thinks it's hilarous to do that. I have become an expert at grabbing him.
He fell out of a grocery cart a few months ago. I thought i was going to have a stroke. I was shaking so hard I could barely stand. He was fine. They don't realize how fast our life is etched away when they do that stuff.
I'm glad everyone is okay!
Posted by: jenni | April 28, 2006 8:53 AM
Just reading that made me shake.
She's got a good guardian angel, that one. So do I. I was hit by cars twice by the time I was 13 years old. Never reven required a visit to the hospitial.
Man. I would have sat there and cried too. I think these things are reminders to hug our children and tell them how much we love them. Oh, and that if they ever run into the street again they will savagely punished.
I am so releived that everyone is okay, and thank god for an attentive driver.
Posted by: meghan | April 28, 2006 8:58 AM
Oh, thank goodness. If anything ever proves that our children are being watched over by something bigger than we are, it's that. I feel ya, honey. I still have goosebumps.
Posted by: Lisa (the girls' moma) | April 28, 2006 9:37 AM
Oh my gosh! How completely terrifying! Glad everyone is A-OK.
Posted by: Sheryl | April 28, 2006 12:43 PM
Dear, dear Jenny I am so with you. When my son was two he belived nothing in the world would ever harm him and he just loved to terrify me. One of his favourits was attempting to run into the street. He keept making a run for it every single time he could get his little hand out of mine. One day his sister stumpled over something and as she lay screaming on the sideway my son used my momentary lack of attention to get away from me and run directly into the street. Here he was hit by a bycylist who did not have a change to stop. This saved him from being hit by a car. Since that day my son have listened when I tell him something is dangerous. He is still selfconfident but now he knows that there is things in life we cannot control and that it just migt be a good idea to respect these things that might harm you. I am sure that have safed his life many times over the last three years. Maybe your girl will also learn something that words cannot teach from this terrifying experience. I love you blok and send you all the best.
Posted by: Marina (from Denmark) | April 28, 2006 1:06 PM
My second son has a serious heart defect. I think it says something that my biggest real fear is that one of my kids will get hit by a car... Wow, wow, wow. Hug them once more and have a glass (or two) of wine!
Maria - mom of 3
Posted by: Maria | April 28, 2006 1:57 PM
OMG. How incredibly awful for you, and how lucky for her that the driver was aware and stopped.
I'm glad she's ok. Have a (huge) drink tonight!
Posted by: Carmen | April 28, 2006 2:04 PM
OMG, wow, I'm sorry. I'm shaking, too, and I wasn't even there.
Posted by: ben | April 28, 2006 6:36 PM
OMG - that made my stomach drop just reading it. So glad she's okay!
Posted by: Rachel | April 29, 2006 6:32 AM
And that's what being an adult is all about... realizing how quickly everything that is so perfect can change. What absolute joy, though, that she is well and you just have a few more grey hairs to thank her for. That feeling of horror will take a while to fade, but it will and in the future, this will just be a part of your family's story.
Posted by: Lin | April 29, 2006 1:53 PM
Oh, Jenny. I'm so sorry that happened, but SO relieved she's okay!
I guess we all have stories like that from our childhoods. It's unrealistic to think dangerous situations won't happen to our children, no matter how good of mothers we try to be.
But now we're seeing how truly terrifying it is from the mother's point-of-view...
Posted by: Lucinda | April 30, 2006 6:28 AM
oh jenny. Poor mama. I love you.
Posted by: steph | April 30, 2006 7:14 AM
How horrible. I'm so glad everyone's ok. What a scare.
Posted by: Kris | April 30, 2006 8:23 PM
My duaghter almost died in my arms once, and I know how you feel. The terror eventually fades to a dim roar, experienced only when you retell the tale, but it never leaves you. Thanks be to all who were watching over your family. I am so glad she is allright.
*BIG COMFORTING HUG*
Posted by: Whimspiration | April 30, 2006 10:32 PM
Good god, my worst nightmare right here on your page! I'm so glad that she was not hurt, I still shudder just from reading that.
Posted by: barbex | May 1, 2006 12:22 PM
Oh my, that happened to me a couple of days ago, although not quite as bad. I grabbed my two year old about 30 seconds before a big bus roared around the corner. I feel for you, it's hard, isn't it?
Found you on Michele's, enjoyed your blogs, will be back.
Posted by: My Float | May 4, 2006 8:40 PM